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Aequitas et Veritas et Licentia

Still alive, still alive, whether that be a curse or a blessing, I don't know and don't care.
Anyway, not much has been going on really. What to talk about, what to talk about.

We'll do it all, everything, on our own.
We don't need anything or anyone.
If I lay here, if I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know how to say how I feel.
Those three words are said too much, they're not enough.
Forget what we're told before we get too old.
Show me a garden that's bursting into life.
Let's waste time chasing cars around our heads.
I need your grace to remind me to find my own.
All that I am, all that I ever was.
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see.
I don't know where, confused about how as well.
Just know that these things will never change for us at all.
-Snow Patrol/Chasing Cars

Bidness first I guess as usual. Still no real job yet, although I must admit I haven't even been looking too much, still keeping my eye's for somethin' to drop an app to if it's even worth it, but more or so trying to work on other ventures so I don't have to go back to that shit depending on how reliable it is--but I'm still contemplating a part time depending on how things go over the next couple of months or so.
First off, that trial projects with making money from the Internets that I previously mentioned, well that hit the shitter and certain top dog websites like Ebay and Amazon, didn't approve of my illegitimate tactics that I used to make the kinda money I did--in which they revoked that cash and banned my accounts, hahaha, I most certainly expected this due to some mistakes I made early on with trial and error, although I did much more research in this venture to better my security the next time around if and when I want to get into that, or whenever it's necessary. Plus, I get all that learning experience and what not, pretty interested stuff, a lot harder to absolutely get away with than what I would have expected, but entirely doable, just a lot more work/learning. So, with that said, I pretty much stopped there with that project.

Somethin' else also came to mind about something I mentioned before with Sprint making some sorta fuck up on my bill, which would have credited nearly 1,000. to my account, but, they got wind of that and had that fixed, bummer. UPDATE; Although I'm supposedly getting twice the amount in rebates returned for I don't know what reason, let's see if this one pulls through.

Back on track, any who, another type of proposition popped up with internet money that I've been watching before actually signing up and trying it, and needless to say, it wasn't that bad with what I worked with, managed to make a nice extra 600.00 over the course of a week or so, added up to maybe just a few full days of work. Yeah, I was already paid for that, helped a bunch with the bills. Since then, there's been a lot of drama with the particular program(not to do with me, but other idiots) that's been resolved and upgraded and refined and such, so having to work with those changes, I started putting a lot more work into this particular venture in various ways with the hopes of making more dollars. Some of the stuff I'd work on all frickin' day, but due to more problems arising, I kinda just stopped, also more with a bunch of IRL shit coming up, that helped a halt on that as well. But no, I've not given this up yet, just a delay, I put in a little time here and there building up what I'm working on, then soon enough, I'll launch it in all ways and just put hours and hours into this shit to try to make that dollars come in. Working with programs, and awaiting one dude to sell me a program he's working on to make things a whole lot easier, time saved, time is money.

More on the bidness aspect, over the course of some months, I've been helping out a good friend whom is in the middle east with some work that he needs to get done down here and I don't mind helping 'em out with that, since potentially I'm not doing anything anyway besides the internet shit, and the beauty behind that is yeah, I choose when and what to do, so it's no biggy. Not everything has gone down just yet, but we're working on it, hopefully soon, and satisfactory should be pleasant on both ends, I'm looking forward to this one though, would help a lot. OH YOU KNOW IT PHIL, BANG BANG.

Yet another venture, I recently was trying to sell my Nintendo DS on Ebay since I never play the damned thing much and it's super new and shit, but those cheap scape Ebayers all wait till the final hours to bid and only low ball since cheapsters. Instead, I put it up on Craigslist and didn't get any responses for days until one dude hit me up, we talked some via email, made a good deal, met up, sold it to him. Told him to contact me if he needed any help with anything.

Well since then, we've made multiple 'transactions' for various things and he has been nothing but satisfied with the business I offer and my generous support if any problems. A part of this is to do with free lance computer based type of work, say if you need a computer fixed/reformatted(cleared of viruses/spyware) backed up, and basically just made to be brand new and updated with the latest and greatest shit. I've done multiple jobs like these in which I work on it ASAP and as fast as I can, usually over a night or two and it's done and I get it back to whomever it was, and I charge like 50.00 for that shit + extra goodies if needed, but cost goes up depending on what exactly. Why me? Well save money, that's why, fuck those geek squad rip offs and everything like 'em, I'll even do some hardware shit if it's doable to me, I mean, I'd look at it anyway for free and if it's not somethin' I can fix, then just return it. I'm looking to expand a bit more in this area as well, by word of mouth type of thing, it's kinda a hobby and I don't mind doing it.
ANY OF YOU HAWAII FUCKERS NEED A COMPUTER FIXED? GET AT ME AND WE CAN TALK AND FIGURE THIS SHIT OUT.

A possible 'nother type of venture exists as well with one of my main man's Chadd, but I won't mention none of that stuff here for obvious reasons. Gotta hustle, you say; be a slave wage? I say; fuck that, I do what I want, I'm a gangsta. You say; Rich assholes rape countries worldwide and tax it's people for their personal profiteering jargon bullshit, I say; I ain't never did a crime I ain't have to do, so fuck your one sided laws.

Now, about a month or so ago, back when I was gonna start looking for a real job, I thought what the hell, it would be a good idea to GET my license just because a bunch of jobs require it for whatever stupid reasons, I'm talking about the one's that have nothing to do with driving but still require it for I don't know, parking or being assured you'll get to work on time and not BUS time. So one fine early morning, I decided to go, went with Tianna in the early AM at like 5:30, going to starbucks to get some coffee, or in my case, I don't drink coffee but I tried a white chocolate mocha, and yeah, coffee just seems to be coffee and it sucks ass, but anything to help me stay up would have been nice because I switched my whole sleeping schedule just to fit in with this one--this had me staying up all the way through the entire next day just to take this road test. Then when we get in line, ring Tianna's mama to meet us there for that of age driver since Tianna don't hit 21 until next month of this year. So we're driving there early, I'm sippin' coffee in one hand, using the other hand to steer while getting my dick sucked all at the same time with being tired, and eventually got there to Kapolei. Waited for hours, first in line, cold as shit, took the test in which I thought I did superb but apparently I don't know how to drive regardless of driving for like 8 years and avoiding all them accidents and etc. I made the same mistake a few times of not treating turning right at a red light as a complete stop, which I was yielding instead because I thought humans saw forward and have eyes because they can see, but I guess not. The woman was very nice though and explained everything, thankfully I didn't get one of those other dicks who hate their life and their job, of which I could out drive their asses any time of day at that.

Fuck it, pissed off, came back the same day next week. This time, I had some old man, I thought I was fucking dead on arrival here since the dude looked lifeless. This time, I concentrated on my mistakes but got thrown off since he made me go on whole 'nother route, GREAT! Another shitty thing is, is Tianna's car's driving meter is like 10-15MPH off, meaning when I'm doing 10MPH, the meter is reading like 25, so talk about turtle fucking slow. Even the old man told me about that cuz he can feel it and knows the difference, but he said he won't tax me on that because it's not my fault, just following the rules. So we were gone for a long time, I nailed the parallel like it was nothing cuz it truly is nothing to me and I never got what was the big deal about it. During our drive, we even started small talk about shit, his experience with his job and what not, so he turned out to be a pretty chill old man, and yep, he passed me. Glad that's over, but more over useless due to the internet ventures, but may still come in handy if I do decide to get a part time job, and over all it just helps me to be less paranoid of being pulled over and harassed by a copper.

Haha @ older ID photos;


Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, I'm begging of you, please don't take my man.
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, please don't take him even though you can.
Your beauty is beyond compare with flaming locks of auburn hair, with ivory skin and eyes of emerald green.
Your smile is like a breath of spring, and your voice is soft like summer rain, and I cannot compete with you, Jolene.
He talks about you in his sleep, and there's nothin' I can do to keep from cryin' when he calls your name, Jolene.
Well, I can easily understand how you could easily take my man, but you don't know what he means to me, Jolene.
Well, you could have your choice of man, but I could never love again, he's thee only one for me, Jolene.
And I had to have this talk with you, my happiness depends on you, and whatever you decide to do, Jolene.
-The White Stripes/Jolene (Dolly Parton Cover)

KELLY, and I'm not talking about that Osbourne bitch or Kapowski. Anyway, lemme share a story about Kelly whom I met through a mutual friend who we both never met, his name is Chris. One day he randomly mentions he knows someone else from Hawaii that I should connect with just because, during, I don't recall what type of conversation. So he drops me her LJ and I check her out, she seems pretty cool, I leave her comments, we chat it up for a while via LJ, and eventually a bit on AIM. It wasn't very long and not very like me, but during some bored day, we decide to just meet and see what's up. So I managed to get to her place without getting lost, thank god it wasn't too complicated for me--so we're both indecisive pricks and don't really know what to do, so I tell her let's just chill then, we don't have to do anything. I picked her up, drove back to my place where we just hung out, chatted about our lives and what not, this 'getting to know each other' type of thing. So a little after an hour, the conversation is on sex. Just your casual sexual conversation, sharing experiences, what you have done and haven't done and the likes. So during that, she had said she never done a facial before and would like to do that one some day. Now if anyone knows who I am, what was I supposed to say? This is exactly what I said; "Well, you wanna try one right now?" As shockingly surprised as she was to my forwardness from what I could see/tell anyway, she could not turn down my sexual allure, haha. She asked what I wanted/wanted to do exactly, I asked her if she wants to suck some cock in which she agreed, so I unzipped and whipped it out, she got to suckin', and pretty damned good at it for someone who's only had 2 partners, and only 18 years old at that. After that, I bent her over the couch and gave her a royal doggy style pounding whilst smacking that ass, choking that neck, pulling that hair and etc as she moans loud enough for the neighbors to masturbate to. I don't normally like to get too fancy on a first time fuckin', so after wearing myself out on that ass for a while, I got up, had her get to her knee's and lower her head while I jerked myself off for a bit until I shot a huge porno load all over this chicks face. Dripping from her septum in her nose and her mouth onto her shirt, I kinda chuckled and said; "Oh boy, I should've gave you a warning that I drop pornstar-like loads." in which she replied that it was OK, and that it was fucking hot, and I told her she looked good with cum all over her face, very becumming of her. I even wanted to take a picture, but she was like noooooooo, I don't know how serious that was, but yeah, moving along, haha. So we both cleaned up, I asked her what her name was again and asked if she was the right woman that I thought I had been talking to on AIM/livejournal, told her to go get herself checked out cuz I probably left her a present down below. All in a jokingly sorta way of course, we chilled for a bit more, then I dropped her off back at home, nice to meet you, later, the end, for now.

Since then, we've been meaning to meet on a couple of occasions that got cock blocked for whatever reasons. She was even trying to get me into a threesome with one of her other acquaintance type of friends whom she could not get into contact with whom said she was interested in me as well for that type of thing since both of those gals supposedly dig each other and just want a cock to be involved, in which they had already selected another dude but that one got weirded out of it for whatever reason, and I was the new candidate, lucky me. I had hoped to plan it for the same day and time the following week, but it never went through since she never got a hold of her friend. We were gonna meet anyway, but she ended up being busy with somethin'. The following week, we were to meet again and she had saw her friend but she was too fucked up to be talked to at the time, so we were just gonna meet, but I ended up getting super swamped and busy with shit that whole morning/afternoon, but she had also said it didn't matter cuz she was sick anyway. Then it was Friday, but never contacted me so I dunno. Any who, I think we'll end up kicking it again in due time, I don't really mind, she's a very freaky open kinda gal, none of that drama BS, so that's cool in my book--maybe even some type of threesome with someone, who knows, haha.

Towards the afternoon of that same day, I ended up taking Tianna to that Black Angus steak restaurant since I finally got some money on me and shit, it was time to enjoy it a little with one of the rare occasions of me going to a restaurant. We got a couple of plates, couple of dranks, a desert(not seen in photo, but NY Strawberry Cheesecake), as seen in the photo's and all delicious;
Hawaiian Avalanche & Strawberry Lemonade, clam chowder & Salad appetizers;

Rack of rabs with garlic mashed potato's and veggies;

Filet Mignon with the same sides as above;



Beach trips have been made, but the beach has been cold and stagnant due to the weather and waves.
This is the part where I try to remember if anything else was left out that's worth mentioning. Let's see, I picked up my little cousin Chucky on some Saturday to come hang out at my place to enjoy the company of a big screen TV and video games that he so much loves but can't play anymore since his family moved in with some Nazi religious type of relatives whom don't believe in games, or anything fun for that matter. So he stayed the whole day and just gamed, we all gamed some, good shit.
Speaking of Chadd from earlier, the dude got screwed out of some place that he was lined up to move into, he was really excited about it and everything and I ain't never seen the dude like that before over some shit like that. So it was good, but it was too good to be true and due to the previous tenants and some drama with the landlord, shit got fucked up, and so he won't be going to that new place now, and he has like a month to find a new place or renew his contract with the current shit hole he's staying at with some dickwad type of people which he really doesn't want to do. So I told 'em he could stay at here at my place if worst came to worst by that time so he doesn't have to stay at that place anymore cuz it's fucked up. Only temporary at that until he can find a new place, it'd be pretty cool as well, we can discuss business and perhaps work on somethings together and teach other some shit while, but we'll see how that ends up going come towards the end of this month depending if he finds a good place or not.

Oh, also, I'm sending in my Alienware even though I really don't wanna part ways with it for a couple of weeks, or a few even, but 'eh, might as well protect my investment while it's still under warranty, sooooo I'm waiting the shipment box and stuff to turn this bad boy in to get it repaired for it's cheaply made case, they oughta step their game up to carbon fiber or some shit. I don't even know how this happened, I think some type of crud gut underneath that end, and when I opened it, it busted right on in and cracked into the seam and busted whatever plastic piece is on the circle thing that allows the screen to be pulled up or down.


Speaking of laptops, I convinced Tianna to buy one of those mini netbooks that cost like 400.00 since she was looking into getting a new one but was hesitant and I don't know why. But she's completely happy with her purchase and it's pretty nice and shit despite it's lacking specs, but it gets the job done with what needs to be done when on the go and shit.



Interested in seeing people fuck on web cam on stickam, where the girl has no idea the dude is broadcasting it on cam? Look no further, here is the direct download link, I'm also in the chat as "Systom" and I make an appearance on one of the web cam spots at the very end of the 110MB movie file(18+);




[Tupac]
Only God can judge me. (Rappin 4-Tay: Is that right?) Only God can judge me now, only God baby nobody else. (Rappin 4-Tay: Nobody else.) All you other motherfuckers get out my business.

Perhaps I was blind to the facts, stabbed in the back, I couldn't trust my own homies, just a bunch a dirty rats. Will I, succeed, paranoid from the weed and hocus pocus, try to focus, but I can't see, and in my mind, I'ma blind man doin' time, look to my future cuz my past is all behind me. Is it a crime to fight for what is mine? Everybody's dyin', tell me what's the use in tryin'? I've been trapped since birth, cautious cuz I'm cursed, and fantasies of my family in a hearse. And they say it's the white man I should fear, but it's my own kind doin' all the killin' here. I can't lie, ain't no love for the other side, jealousy inside, make 'em wish I died. Oh my Lord, tell me what I'm livin' for, everybody's droppin', got me knockin' on heaven's door. And all my memories of seein' brothers bleed and everybody grieves, but still, nobody see's. Recollect your thoughts, don't get caught up in the mix, cuz the media is full of dirty tricks. Only God can judge me.

Flatline, I hear the doctor standin' over me, screamin' I can make it, got a body full of bullet holes layin' here naked, still I can't breathe, somethin's evil in my IV, cuz every time I breathe, I think they killin' me. I'm having nightmares, homicidal fantasies, I wake up stranglin', danglin' my bed sheets. I call a nurse cuz it hurts to reminisce, how did it come to this, I wish they didn't miss. Somebody help me, tell me where to go from here, cuz even thugs cry, but do the Lord care? Tryin' to remember, but it hurts, I'm walkin' through the cemetery talkin' to the dirt. I'd rather die like a man than live like a coward, there's a ghetto up in Heaven and it's ours, Black Power, is what we scream as we dream in a paranoid state and our fate is a lifetime of hate, Dear Mama, can ya save me? And fuck peace cuz the streets got our babies, we gotta eat, no more hesitation, each and every black male's trapped and they wonder why we suicidal, runnin' 'round strapped. Mr. Police, please try to see that it's a million motherfuckers stressin' just like me. Only God can judge me.

That which does not kill me can only make me stronger, (Rappin 4-Tay: that's for real.) And I don't see why everybody feel as though that they gotta tell me how to live my life. (Rappin 4-Tay: You know?) Let me live baby, let me live.

[Rappin 4-Tay]
Pac, I feel ya, keep servin' it on the reala, for instance, say a playa hatin' mark is out to kill ya, would you be wrong for buckin' a nigga to the pavement? He gon' get me first, if I don't get him, fool, start prayin'. Ain't no such thing as self defense in the court of law, so judge us when we get to where we're goin' across, that's real. Got him, lurked him, crept the fuck up on him, sold a half a million tapes, now everybody want 'em. After talkin' behind my back like a bitch would, tellin' them niggas; "You can fade us." Punk, I wish you would. It be them same motherfuckers in your face that'll rush up in your place to get your safe, knowin' you on that paper chase. Grass, glass, big screen and leather couch, my new shit is so fetti, already sold a key of ounce. Bitch, remember Tupac and 4-Tay, them same two brothers dodgin' bullets, representin' The Bay. Pac, when you was locked down, that's when I'll be around, start climbin' up the charts, so sick, but they tried to clown. That's why they ride the bandwagon, still be draggin', sellin' lies, don't think I don't see you haters, I know you all in disguise.

[Tupac]
Guess you figure you know me cuz I'ma thug that love to hit the late night club, drink then buzz, been livin' lavish like a player all day. Now I'm 'bout to floss 'em off, player shit with 4-Tay. Only God can judge me.

(Rappin 4-Tay: Only God man, that's for real, fuck everybody else, know what I'm sayin'?) Man, look here man, my only fear of death is comin' back to this bitch reincarnated. That's for the homey mental, we up out. Only God can judge me now.

-2PAC & Rappin 4-Tay/Only God Can Judge Me