That's just the way it is
This is where I try to remember what the fuck I've been up to since the last entry.
Where to start, where to start...maybe I better skim through what I last wrote first.
I see, oh yeah, well, that didn't fucking help! Haha.

We'll take it easy, tigers in a cage. Pacing on our pads and waiting for the time to come in reverie, our lazy bones ache for our dowry. Can't hold on to the thrill, so I hope you find your will to follow through. What we invented, I am now ending. Hold on to who you love, we are tryin' to blow like dust since we were young, what we invented, I am now ending. The closest thing we had to royalty, a chance to break our parent's pattern. We chose to keep your teenage tragedy in lieu of their romantic palace. Play tender like a new born baby would, play tender till the night is over. I'm leaving you to nurture cherished wounds and care for it just like your lover, yeah. The morning's over, the day is in full swing. I know you're busy, but please won't you come visit me? You are an aimless ghost, you haunt your bag of bones. The wolf messed with your vision, he is sitting in your kitchen while you sleep tonight, he will eat you young and you will act surprised.
-Brand New/Fork And Knife

I did end up hanging out with Chloe again for a couple of days, ha.


^Groupie and blender magazine.

^And you know I ain't one to fuck wiiith.

I recall a beach day with Tianna, and to my mom's place where I moshed in the rain with my nephew Jayden, and hung him over a ledge to see a huge centipede. What the fuck is up with centipedes and that place?








What else is on the list...I hung out with my uncle Jason and cousin's a couple of days in a row over the past weekend. It was pretty cool, yet again, I broke my no weed smoking thang...but I figure it was for a good reason of which I'll talk about later. Hanging out with my family isn't something I do much, more or so, it's usually just Alfredo, or bigger events with everyone. So I take Tianna's white ass with me to my uncle/aunt's Jason's/Heather's place, with my cousin's; Alfredo&Eva, Alexander&Cici+kids, Vincent&his GF(which I can never remember her name), Jason's friend Josh. It basically consisted of drunk moke types talking shit and listening to music and being loud, getting high, zoning out and watching CSI. Even Tianna did some shots and drank one of those light bitch drinks, I just got highhhhhhhh and it was grand, good laughs. I recall sleeping at 2am or so, and then awaking at 7am, and got a call from Alfredo at that time asking if I wanted to go to the beach. SO, off we went. Tianna came with, picked up Alfredo, went all the way down to the west side beaches, 'course we were the first there so we ate some of that BBQ plate lunch shit. Everyone from the previous night showed up eventually, some of them went diving, we just swam, played with the kids, etc. Stayed at the beach for quite some time and was catching a lot of sun. Eventually we left before everyone else cuz we got too much sun. Sun burnt for the next few days.

So the reason I decided to smoke some pot again at these events was simple, I NEEDED SLEEP! I needed to get back on a normal sleeping schedule, my sleeping schedule has been absolutely fucked and it still is. I'm talkin', I've been staying up until 10AM-12PM, sleeping anywhere from those times and waking up at 4-6PM, night schedule and shit. It didn't help as much as Id've liked it to because I was so exhausted, and I needed to stay up to fit the times but I ended up failing with naps and shit. But, the reason was because I had gotten a JOB! It's a project based job that I heard about via EMAIL, so it would only be for a few days of work, or more if needed for an IT based position for another company--plus anything in the future with other companies. The pay was 16/hr, although just temporary+the experience, I was like, what the hell, why not? They contacted me, we talked back and forth over email or the phone with figuring shit out, spoke to a few different people around the nation. So I had a job date set for this week Thursday, or Today, and Friday. A day later, the original person I spoke to, his manager contacted me regarding another position, an earlier one, for TUESDAY, but it was on MAUI. Everything was paid for, flight, cab, food, etc for the day. I was hesitant at first because I've never been to Maui and it was so sudden, this was all just last weekend, but I accepted anyway, cuz why the hell not? So Tuesday quickly came, but before that, I had to prep and go buy some new faggy clothes. That's right, the black shoes, black slacks, although I bought a black long sleeve collared button up, I had another blue silk one that I used for the trip instead. After a haircut, I tried working with my hair and MOUSSE for the first time, in which I didn't go with that after all on the trip cuz I was like fuck it.

^Something you'll almost never see, or never see.

Her green plastic watering can for her fake Chinese rubber plant in the fake plastic earth that she bought from a rubber man in a town full of rubber plans to get rid of itself. It wears her out, it wears her out, it wears her out, it wears her out. She lives with a broken man, a cracked polystyrene man who just crumbles and burns. He used to do surgery for girls in the eighties, but gravity always wins, and it wears him out, it wears him out. It wears him out, it wears him out. She looks like the real thing, she tastes like the real thing, my fake plastic love. But I can't help the feeling, I could blow through the ceiling if I just turn and run, and it wears me out, it wears me out. It wears me out, it wears me out. And if I could be who you wanted, if I could be who you wanted, all the time, all the time.
-Radiohead/Fake Plastic Trees

By the time Monday came, I started feeling SLIGHTLY sick, didn't think much of it until after a nap and in came the sinus burns. I barely slept Monday night at all, a good 2-4 hours maybe, the rest spent twisting and turning until it was time to get ready and go. Swung by 7-11 to get drugs cuz I felt the sickness coming on, Dayquil all the way baby. Eventually got on my flight at 6:30AM, arrived in Maui around 7:00AM(what the fuck is it with EVERYONE carrying a Starbucks cup at airports?), caught a cab for the first time to my destination which wasn't too far from the airport. There was a Mcdonalds near the place and it was early, had breakfast there. I went to the business building plaza, met up with the Woman I was supposed to see there to start working on their computers with hardware surveying with HP, I was the only one there with about 15 machines to do. The work in itself was not that hard to me, just had to break some ground and get used to it the first couple of times, and deal with a couple of smaller errors, write down some shit, and map out the place in a quick shitty sketch. I met a bunch of the workers there, stock brokers, mortgage type big business people, some pretty interesting to break into conversation with while I take over their computers for a while to work on. I was naturally nervous the whole time of travel to going there to being there, but then it subsided after a while. I got all my work done really quick though, I was out of the place by 1:00PM after going over some forms and faxing it out, and phone call verifications with the higher ups. My flight wasn't until near 5:00PM, so I had some lunch at Mcdonalds, text messages, going over some forms and emails etc. I left there around 2pm with the same cabby, I didn't know what else to do there really, nor did I wanna spend money for it. I know my uncle lives in Maui, but I figured what's a few hours, right? So I didn't bother callin' 'em, cuz I don't think he lived near the airport anyway. So I just went back to the airport, set up my laptop on their pay-for-internet-access table, and just hooked it up to my cellphone to surf the net for free, chumps. That's all I pretty much did to kill the remaining time, internet-ing, and listening to music, and having to deal with mass retards walking around me and or hovering briefly to go "OH INTERNET", much less all the looks I get for all my tats once I unbuttoned my shirt, and later removed it. By the time I got back to Oahu, I was feeling like absolute shit, completely sick and exhausted. AT LEAST I GOT THE JOB DONE! Went home, forced myself to eat somethin', more meds, and I passed out and woke up at some early AM time, feeling more horrid than ever. Bad sinus infection, headaches, nausea, dizziness, swollen/scratchy throat, the whole works. This was my decision if I was going to work on Thursday/Friday or not, I forwarned the company the day before cuz I recognized the symptoms and I know it'd be bad. So I called off my next two working days, pretty pissed about that cuz I lose out on the opportunities, but I can't work feeling like that, fuck. So here's a couple of pics and a couple of vids. Vids are from the plane's window, first one is arriving to Maui, second one is landing in Oahu. Pictures, wing view, and then krispy kremes cuz I've never had fresh donuts from them guys, Tianna was telling me to go get some but I felt like shit and I didn't know where the place was until my cab ride back to the airport, I saw it, so I got it for her, a picture anyway, haha.





So, here I am, spent the day popping meds, watching shit, drinking juice, sleeping, whatever the fuck else you do when you're sick. Had to fill out a shit ton of forms as well, which Tianna took care of for me, thank fuck, but I still had to go to a bank to get a form notarized, ugh, but that didn't take too long. Dayquil pills get me by temporarily, nyquils for the sleeping but I've yet to do that since I keep napping and end up sleeping for long hours without knowing, probably good for me though...except I passed out way earlier today, and just woke up around 11PM. I guess that's all for now, onward with my sick ass self, coughing up/blowing out blood and shit, I think I caught this sickness from Alfredo cuz he said he had the same thing...OH, maybe I shouldn't have finished his food for him? FUCK, haha. -fills up trashcan next to me with a barrel of used napkins-

P.S. I've been writing a shit ton more on my web blog at http://systom.org, if you like tech related shit, and or SEX, gadgets, games, funny shit, inked bitches, or just Tom writing in all alike, check it out, I try to keep it updated and post somethin' at least once a day, minus the past few since I've been busy and sick. Guest writers from my pal's Danny and Chadd as well, even though Chadd is yet to write, but he'll get to it when he's not busy.
DOUBLE P.S. HOT DAMN!



TRIPLE P.S. Watch this if you have the time, well maybe you should because you fucking live here on planet earth and probably in America, this involves everyone. So no excuses you fucking fearful animals. FREEDOM. FOREVER.


[Chorus: Lil Wayne]
And I'm grindin' until I'm tired, cuz they say you ain't grindin' until you die. So I'm grindin' with my eyes wide, looking to find a way through the day, a light for the night. Dear Lord, you done take so many of my people, I'm just wonderin' why you haven't taken my life? Like what the hell am I doing right? My life.
[Verse 1: The Game]
Take me away from the hood like a state penitentiary, take me away from the hood in the casket or a Bentley. Take me away like I overdosed on cocaine or take me away like a bullet from Kurt Cobain, suicide. I'm from a Windy City, like "Do or Die" from a block close to where Biggie was crucified. That was Brooklyn's Jesus, shot for no fuckin' reason, and you wonder why Kanye wears Jesus pieces? My life. Cuz that's Jesus people and Game, he's the equal. Hated on so much, "Passion of Christ" need a sequel. Yeah, like Roc-a-fella needed Sigel, like I needed my father, but he needed a needle. My life. I need some meditation, so I can lead my people. They askin' “Why?" Why did John Lennon leave The Beatles and why every hood nigga feed off evil? Answer my question before this bullet leave this Desert Eagle.
[Chorus: Lil Wayne]
[Verse 2: The Game]
We are not the same, I am a Martian, so approach my Phantom doors with caution. You see them 24's spinnin'? I earned 'em, and all the pictures of me and EM, I burned em. So it ain't no proof that I ever walked through 8 mile, and since it ain't no proof, I'll never walk through 8 mile. Sometimes I think about my life with my face down, then I see my sons and put on that Kanye smile. My life. Damn, I know his mama proud and since you helped me sell my dream, we can share my mama now, and like MJB, "No More Drama" now. Livin’ the good life, me and Common on common ground, I spit crack and niggas could drive it outta town. Got a Chris Paul mind state, I'm never outta bounds. My life used to be empty like a glock without a round, now my life full, like a chopper with a thousand rounds.
[Chorus: Lil Wayne]
[Verse 3: The Game]
Walk through the gates of Hell, see my Impala parked in front with the high beams on. Me and the Devil share chronic blunts, listening to the "Chronic" album, playing backwards, shootin’ at pictures of Don Imus for target practice. My mind fucked up, so I cover it with a Raider hood, I'm from the city that made you motherfuckers afraid of Suge, Compton. Made my grandmother pray for good and never made her happy, but I bet that new Mercedes could. My life. Ain't no bars, but niggas can't escape the hood, they took so many of my niggas that I should hate the hood. But it's real niggas like me that make the hood, ridin' slow in that Phantom just the way I should. My life. With the top back in my Sox hat, I'm paid in full, the nigga Alpo couldn't stop tha. Even if they brought the nigga 'Pac back, I'll still keep this motherfucker cocked back.
[Chorus: Lil Wayne]
My life.
-The Game(feat. Lil Wayne)/My Life

^The first song I dig that has Lil Wayne in it, amazing.

GONNA GO PLAY SOME BLACK MONOPOLY NOW, PEACE!